Danza Hermosa

I've been dancing in my whole life; ballet for 7 yrs, Tahitian(belly + Hawaiian hula dance) and cheeleading dance for 2 yrs, contemporary(modern) dance for 5 yrs, and hip-hop (freestyle) dance.
In this quarter, I had to take one of the art classes. Actually, I wanted to take a vocal class but after talking with an advisor, she said like, "Yes, you took dance classes in high school. So, why don't you take a performance class. You can definitely get the permission from the prof.!"
And now, I'm sitting in front of my laptop computer and searching for any songs for my final term...I've been having choreographies almost everyday with my partner but nothing seems to be getting better.

Here are the songs I picked;
Sergio Mendes Ft. Black Eyed Peas - Mas Que Nada (Samba Pt.)
Mika - Happy Ending (Contemporary Pt.)
Nelly - Just A Dream (Hip-Hop)


The final-term one is limited to 20 minutes but I don't know he and I can dance for the whole period...dah! It's chaos! Only 2 weeks left and my whole body are already torn.

If you have any ideas, please comment here or tell me asap! :)

In the morning, the first thing I think of is what you would do today.

I spend more time thinking of you.

I feel stuck and act like a loser in this love.

I know I shouldn't be missing you.

I used to be high-demanding and disrespectful to you.

All of a sudden though,

I started thinking about you nonstop.

I seriously cannot get you out of my head.

I've fallen into this deep spiral of sadness.

I feel so alone and lost,

even though I know he's not looking back at me.

What happened to me? What have I done?

                                                

I'll Get Back Up Again

If you observe a really happy man you will find him building a boat, writing a symphony, educating his son, growing double dahlias in his garden, or looking for dinosaur eggs in the Gobi desert.  He will not be searching for happiness as if it were a collar button that has rolled under the radiator.  He will not be striving for it as a goal in itself.  He will have become aware that he is happy in the course of living life twenty-four crowded hours of the day. 

Happiness must be allowed to grow up.

Korean War Again?

I've heard that some serious situations have been happening at the borders between North and South Koreas. Unbelievable emotional attacks have been already emerged with no question.

I assume that it's another starting point for the second War in Korea, as the two Koreas are still technically at war. (the Korean War ended only with a truce.)

The overall North Korea's attacks threatened not only South Korea but also all over the world.

Some developed countries such as U.S. or UK have argued and blamed for the world,which cannot condemn N. Korea's violent bombs, because N. Korea has the active nuclear weapons.

Tensions rose sharply at this point and what would end them up has unanswered yet. However, the only certain thing is, unless they negotiate to change their opinions, they would keep expressing concern over the exchange of fire and the peace and stability would never work on the Korean territories.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-11818005?ref=nf

Additional Notification : No school today due to the snow storm coming in Seattle.

Christmas Tree Lighting

Finally snowing in Seattle! Yeah!
After school, I couldn't stop my excited feelings coming out. I directly went to Panera Bread to get some scones and to the library to meet my best friend, Changhyun(?) Oppa.
I completely wrapped all my body with few layers of clothes, gloves, and thick tight knee highs. He and I went to downtown to shop around and take some snow pics. We couldn't stop shivering our bodies while walking on the street and couldn't walk so fast because of the ground freeze.
I was not in a good mood because of the fact that I'm still single even though I'm having the bestest weather in the snow. It's what people say "pathetic".
Getting home, I cooked for myself...ugh, getting more pathetic?

I cooked a curry dish with yums, onions, carrots, and other stuffs and another dish of savory seasoned turkey breast. It was not that bad but could have been better if I had someone to eat with. If anyone wishes to have a great meal cooked by me, then please tell me so. :)

Catch Me If You Can

In the studying area on the first floor, there were a guy and a girl studying together for a midterm.
The guy kept staring at the girl and they suddenly got eye-contacted.
Girl : "Something on my face?" with a smiling face.
Guy : "Nah...I just...think you always look pretty even though I don't even know your name..."
Girl : "Oh, I didn't tell you that yet? blah blah...you also look good."
Guy : "Thanks. I've been watching you for a while and still thinking the same."
She got blushed and when she knew about him, she suddenly looked blue.
Silence came over.
Guy : "Did I say something I shouldn't do?"
There was no reason why she couldn't hide her sad face,
but at somewhere in the middle of her heart,
where the guy could possibly transpass into,
for that little short time,
she realised she wasn't able to forget someone else.

When a guy who really loves you reminds the one you loved before...then, would you be able to fall in love with the new guy even though you're still not forgetting the last one?

I thought I could do and be over you.
but my heart cannot change.
I'm still the one who I used to be with you.
Why am I so stupid not gettin' over it?

Complexity

In the morning, I suddenly felt that I needed to not only build some muscle but also gain some weight.
Compared to my circumstance, my friends tend to be on a diet currently, which means I can't ask them about how to gain weight and be healthy...?

The weird thing is...
I do eat alot more than a person is required to have for a meal.
I don't really work out these days but I walk home after school, even when it's really dark outside.
I meet friends to chat with for socializing
I study almost all day long so there's no way to lose weight.
In spite of this daily lifestyle,
I'm losing weight due to all the stresses, mental anxiety, and depression...

What I've tried last night with one of my healthy friends was...
eating some junk food to gain fats first of all.
Simply,
Salmon salad including some other fruits and veggies + rose wine + 16 oz marshmallows + 11 oz chocolate bar + Haagen-Dazs Pistachio ice cream covered with whipped cream and cherries + Chopped mango + 2 cups strawberry milk + Crispy hash browns + some other snacks
After eating all these stuffs, my belly felt like pretty much filled with so many things.
So, when I woke up in this morning, I weighed myself to see if I gained and the scale was pointing 88 lbs.
It's pretty much less than I expected. Even though all the things I had last night were greasy and fatty with over ten thousand calories, I didn't get at all. I also wondered if it's because I'm recently on my period for 2 weeks.
Or...like my doctor told me before, my body doesn't tend to absorb any vitamins and nutritions from food and that's why I always feel dizzy and mentally sensitive to move.
Everytime...I want to ask my body like, "What's wrong with you?"
You don't seem healthy but weak and out of energy!
Is there a way that I can be in a normal body shape instead of drinkin'?

Hey sweetie, can you imagine that?

Christmas is finally coming!

I am already counting down the days left.

The fact we're apart now,

and we can't be together for Christmas,

makes me feel sad and lonely.

But sincerely, I wish you a...

Darling,

I might have this Christmas with my friends,

with cups of Hot Chocolate

and sweetened cookies and pies.

I already started lighting my Christmas tree

and putting red clothes on.

Hope you have the bestest winter with the white snow.

We're no longer lovers like this.

But I give you the most romantic hugs and kisses

in your dream.

Make your Christmas special! :D

My point

Things in my head:
Christmas
The rain and the snow
Hot chocolate with extra mashmallows
Krispy Kreme donuts
Love and faith
Old photos and memories
Skiing and snowboarding
Projects and assignments
God and the church
Traveling
Changing a major and running start
How to put a smile
Hugs and kisses
PJ sandwiches and bananas
How to use my new iPhone 4
Lost recipes
Broken nails and extreme hair losses
Success in physics
Waiting for calls
Seeking for something I've lost
Coldness
Flash mobs @ city centre
Red, green, and white
Decorating my house with earth colour
You
What to do on this Thursday
Little beads on the floor
Ugh, too much...

It was You.

We've already tasted love.
It was bitter but so sweet.
It was fall to devastating.
It worked so much in mysterious way,
and our emotional minds couldn't be negotiated across the time.
You said there was nothing else you could do to back up.
I realised nothing else could satisfy me.
So you can keep my love to yourself.