Easy Steps To Go Through

1.Start liking someone else quick. In this position of depression, you are very vulnerable to emotional attacks. Liking someone else will distract you from that old boy.
2.Don't listen to any slow or love songs... you will grow desperate.
3.If you are friends with him, make it clear to yourself that friendship is all he wants. He has his girlfriend because he likes her!
4.Be sensitive to him, but not overly. You'll just be digging a deeper hole for yourself.
5.There are other men, who will accept you! Go for it.
6.Go out and have some fun. Don't just stay at home thinking about what he's doing with the gf.
7.Don't cry over a man who doesn't like you.
8.Do not let yourself think that you are not attractive, or that you will never find someone better. There is always someone better.
9.If he has a MySpace, Facebook, etc, avoid his page. Seeing him and his girlfriend there will just hurt.
10.Don't have him within your top 5/10/etc, unless you are practically best friends. She'll just be suspicious.
11.Try not to look at him.
12.If you start to think about him, then think about someone else. Someone hotter.
13.Don't be calling him a lot. That's just not cool.
14.Unless you have a legit reason, just don't call/text him.
15.Don't look at him as the most important person in your life.
16.Forget him because it could effect your mental health, which will directly affect your studies. After all, your degree is more important.
17.Make sure that you self analyze your relationship and jot down the pros and cons of your relationship: This is the most important step to prepare yourself, as you will need to know exactly what makes your relationship work: Is it the love, is it the sex, is it the companionship, is it the family pressure, is it your friends etc. You need to know the strong points and the weak points in your relationship. This way you can build on the strong aspects on your relationship, while neutralizing the weak aspects.
18.Make sure that you especially analyze your faults and weaknesses: For example, if your ex-lover thought that you were self centered, then you should recognize this and thus take steps to change yourself. Don’t forget that whatever caused your relationship to fail, you hold the key inside you. However, in order to fix it, you must know what aspects of yourself to change.
19.While you are doing the self analysis above, make sure that you provide your ex-partner with some space and time. Your partner must understand that you won’t die, because your relationship has broken. Don’t forget that emotional blackmail is the worst thing that you can do. If you want to win your ex back, you must be confident and you must show your ex that life doesn’t revolve around you two.
20.Improve yourself: To show your ex that you have changed and also to show that you still have the positive qualities that you had in your relationship; you must improve yourself. At the least try to make yourself physically fit. If possible, change your job and get a better one to show that you can be a better person.
21.Make sure that you keep the channels of communication open: Go to your friends for advice. If you have the chance, make sure that you visit your ex-lovers friends. Show them that you have changed, so that they can tell your ex informally. No matter what happens make sure that you have a calm demeanor. The task ahead to make up won’t be easy; but these preparations will help you get through it.

Always Between The Lines

Just about the time the shadows call

I undress my mind and dare you to follow
Paint a portrait of my mystery
Only close my eyes and you are here with me
A nameless face to think I see
To sit and watch the waves with me till they're gone
A heart I'd swear I'd recognize is made out of my own devices.
Could I be wrong?


The time that I've taken
I pray is not wasted
Have I already tasted my piece of one sweet love?


Sleepless nights you creep inside of me
Paint your shadows on the breath that we share
You take more than just my sanity
You take my reason not to care.
No ordinary wings I'll need
The sky itself will carry me back to you


The things I dream that I can do I'll open up
The moon for you
Just come down soon
Ready and waiting for a heart worth the breaking
But I'd settle for an honest mistake in the name of
One sweet love.


Savor the sorrow to soften the pain sip on
The southern rain
As I do, I don't look don't touch don't do anything
But hope that there is a you.

Bittersweet

Am I in You?

My heart doesn't lie like it didn't before from the day I first saw you.
I took out the old photos and journals from my secret pandora box and imagined you doing well without me. I still hear your voice and see you in my dream. Thinking of you who used to whisper "I love you" in my ear still makes me smile.
I thought you would come back to me because you knew how this break up would hurt you and me and you truly noticed that I was dying in the dark shadow, but you didn't even look back to me, walking away from me.
When I recently saw you on the street, passing by me, I couldn't even recognize you. You've changed too much so I could barely stare at you. Then, I looked down and tried to make sure that I forgot you and you're not mine anymore, but I couldn't do so, so I cried, waiting for you to catch me back.
You might meet someone else and you don't even wonder how I am living these days. You might not remember our love, fallen down on the ground like a parachute sinks into the water with no sound. I might be the only one who still fights for your love and try not to move on so I can keep good memories without being scattered away in the air.
Nobody else can break our love, even though you and I have been apart. Nobody can manipulate or judge us. That's why I follow what my heart leads, no matter what. I'll wait like this till you come back, even if it takes forever. So, I say I love you.

All I Wanna Tell You

Unrecognizable

He would say what he wants and I would listen and tell him, "Don't be silly, you know I love you."
Fortunately or unfortunately, you are not alone and I'll be always next to you, and we will have the greatest Christmas pretty soon. I'll calm down his nervous, desperate feelings.
He, then, asks me a lot of the same question nonstop with his curious, ravishing face like a little child. He can't seem to hide his smiling mind. I would say that he acts weird, making a frowny face, but, inside myself, I say he can't be more adorable than that!

I can not easily express my feelings, whether I feel good or not, without getting people mad at me, or I'm really good at acting. I pretend to look fine, self-controlling, and kinda happy in my life. Sometimes, I act to be mean, selfish, and hating, not to open my mind toward them, but I would be feeling sorry to them and saying, "It's not what I really mean, but hope you understand why." My parents and friends are also unable to define who I am like. I would be the sweetest girl temporarily, change my mind, and act so cold, blue, and even mean like chameleons change their skin colour depending on the ecosystem they live in.

Letting people leave is the hardest thing I might do, but I would leave them when I feel like they would pretty much shut down their mind and walk away from me, so that I don't get a huge broken heart. It'd be also hard to decide letting them apart away from me, but easier than getting hurt. People would tell me I'm not understandable but more vulnerable than others. Who are you like?

Not Because...

People tend to love someone to prove that they love themselves and realize that they are terrified to get hurt by the one they love so they can't easily open their minds.

Have you ever fallen in love at first sight? screwed up your relationship at the end? and looked for your new soulmate to get over your ex-boyfriend? I used to do the same. I wanted to figure out why I really got exhausted with all the things between him and me. I thought of such things like,
'Everyone makes people do funny things at the beginning of a relationship, wanting too much happiness, too much pleasure, too much beliefs, until they make you feel sick.' I know terrible circumstances and discipline were stucking him and me into the darkness but the main point wasn't, but untrustfulness devoured our love and true feelings were gone.

I tried everything to get rid of every single stuff that reminds me of him. I prayed for myself to God to be retrieved. I re-planned and started my life again, eventually my ruined body and heart didn't diminish a part of my future, which was almost vanished.

Depending on the length of the relationship, it might be harder and take longer to actually get over them. However, after a breakup, no matter how bad it was, we know we gotta move on because everyone needs a little bit of love and affection to live in this world.

What I learned from so many passing people in love was, when you love someone, do not afraid to lose yourself and sacrify yourself to fall in love. Love is not only blind but also deaf, dumb, and stupid. The fear that you have inside is from your greedy, selfish, sneaky mind. Once you truly love someone, you won't be able to hide yourself and might lose important things in your life, but after you get into a deep relationship, you'll get the worthwhile things back and find the treasure.

When I was in love with him, I was happy not to be apart but feeling guilty about that I was keeping him besides me even though my love has disappeared. However, after the desperate breakup, what I realized was I still loved him at that moment and was living in regreattable memories and the sorrow like a sad divorced woman or my mom. I couldn't get him back at the end and I still think I was stupid and made a wrong decision. I lost you.

Not Yet

You smile when you feel like crying
you act like you're okay.
When you're really falling apart inside,
and you eventually let it go.
You move on because there's nothing else you can do or say.
But I can still feel your love and anger at the same time,
and you don't seem to know how it hurts me and breaks down.

As we grow up, we'll learn that even the one person that wasn't
supposed to ever let you down probably will. We will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. When you leave someone, you'll also have a broken mind inside, so remember how
it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love and regret that you'd already left the one you truly loved in the past. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've
never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. 

Thanks to you, I learned the true love and would never force again to get you back because even though you say you're lonely in your life at this moment without me,I know you don't want to be with me anymore and I don't want to get hurt by watching you dying next to me, not in love...but I still love you because my heart doesn't tend to work in the same way my brain does. I thought I forgot you but unconsciously, I think of you. Is it how you wanted me to be supposed to? Fighting for this love with no purpose? Realising that all the conflicts and faults and feeling guilty? Is it all you can do? Why are you being so cruel and making me vulnerable? It's not who you were, isn't it?