This is how much I love you!

True Love Disappeared.

Being in love is hard. Especially, finding out the exact one who I can love forever never happens in my life. All the guys I've know never do love, but what they've given to me were painful heartbreaks. When I met my ex, I promised him that as long as I would be with him forever, and he suddenly left me. Now, I'm scared about opening my mind and loving someone. I tend to predict guys would cheat on me even before I know them...

Few weeks ago, I met a guy. I was pretty attracted to him. We had good feelings for each other. I thought that love would last forever..but I was wrong. Confusion and prejudice blocked our relationship and our friendship's also over now...I don't know what happened to us. I shouldn't have trusted him. I can't forgive myself and I regret everything that I've done to him. If he leaves me like a stranger, I would be very disappointed and go and punch his face! Because I know I was holding onto the wrong things apparently!

I'm born again because of You!

Love is fearless...

The things and people you love are a reflection of what you see inside yourself, so never say goodbye when you still want to try, never give up when you still feel you can take it, and never say you don't love something you can't let go of, because loving is easy but letting go of what you love is nearly impossible.
-Sabrina Dermody-

Rebounding

Since last few months, there were 3 painful break-ups from one person...actually not break-ups, but just breaking my heart. I cried almost everyday, depressed extremely. When he said he doesn't want to hurt me but he can't love me, my heart felt like it stopped beating for a while. At that time I tried so hard to get over him but he was totally stuck in my mind all the time.

He and I couldn't be friends. Whenever I woke up in the morning, I tried to think what happened with my emotions was just a nightmare, not a real story. After that, it took long to mend my broken heart.

After these hard times, now I found a new love. He just came into my life and changed my everything. I feel like I never loved someone the way that I love him. I know someday he might leave me and he's not that into me, but I just like the way he looks at me. I hope this love lasts in the future.....forever.

Forgive me!

I feel like something stabbed through my heart or I lost something pretty important for my life.

As one of my best friends told me, what I'm feeling might be defined one word, which is 'heart-broken'. I definitely trying to deny this reality that I'm grieving and still can't forget 'my love'. I know there's no way back to love again. I also don't need anything or love from him but, what I want is only the person in my life.

Everything looked so beautiful when I was with him, but now they look so poor and I've been negative, listening to sad love songs, and now I feel pathetic and getting stupid. I was so dumb and wrong.

The person who tried to walk away was me and then now, I regret so badly. I thought I would be easy to do so.... now I'm sure how I feel about him.

Hon, can we bring yesterday back around?

What I'm feeling now

Now it's a quarter after 1 am.
Tick Tock Tick Tock....and then the time just stopped accidently in my mind.
I got a regrettable memory.
The time we shared our love...everything we've done together was deleted from my brain.
I can think of nothin' because you were the only one living in my everything.
I just gave you up and left you away only for you. The victim in this love might be myself.
From now, nobody can cure my torn heart and body.
I just can't stop crying because you were the one who was right next to me.
Being alone without you is painful and I'm lost.
Need a person to fix me.
Rescue me.